I understand you have been through some very difficult situations. I understand there have been huge changes in your life. I understand you want to have fun and have a hard time focusing on things when there are more fun distractions out there. I understand that it SUCKS to not be able to go to something or do something that everyone else is doing. However, you are not the only person who has gone through difficult situations or made huge changes in their lives or wants to have fun when there are not so fun things they have to do instead.
I can rationally deal with detentions and bad grades, i can handle the lack of effort, the bad attitudes at times not being able to do things because you have made decisions in school that affect everyone at home, i can be patient when you dont get what you want and pout, or when you wont look your father in the eye when he is talking to you, i can even bite my tongue till it bleeds when you show no respect for your father or any gratitude for everything he has done for you.
I CANNOT, however, deal with lying in any of the ways i just mentioned. If i cannot not trust you on the little things, how on earth can i trust you with anything else. I will not be able to have you in the other room supposedly doing something when i know you have LIED to me and your father. Do i have stand next to you when you “say” you are brushing your teeth, do i have to sit with you the entire time you are doing your homework and your reading, just to be sure? Do i have to wait to drop you off at school before i can take a shower and start my day because i do not trust that you are putting clean clothes on for school and not eating things i have asked you not to eat? Do i have to check your bag before and after school to be sure it has what it is supposed to have in it? Please dear God do not make me go to school with you, because i would. Why? because i care about you and just want to see you succeed. I know that things will get worse before they get better and i am willing to put the work into this to make things better. But i am so hurt that you would pull a stunt like that. trust is something that you cannot mess around with, it takes a very long time for me to trust someone, once they have it its theirs but if they do something for me to doubt it…its takes longer to earn it back. it makes me sick to my stomach thinking that i cant trust you and i have no idea how to convey my feelings so that you might understand the severity of the situation, again because now i doubt if at any time i ask you “does that make sense” and you say “yeah” do you really mean you understand it, or are you LYING! lying is like a disease that spreads into every little thing in your life and before you know it you cannot tell the difference between the truth and what has been lied about, you are young, dont start off like that!
Nick you are a great person with so much potential, i know you will go far. I am just asking you this one little favor, do not lie. it may be easier at first to lie but you will never get ahead by lying.
Thank you for letting me vent and if any of this is unclear, feel free to ask me at any time, i have never lied to you.
Love you lots
P.S sorry but i ran out of time to put the new calendar up on the fridge, i ll do it tonight when i get home.