i have been in a weird place this past week, not a bad place or a good place, just weird. i have had vivid dreams about people i haven’t seen or spoken to in years and terrifying nightmares about the people closest to me now. i have had intense attacks of ‘the crazy’ and only now i feel as if i have come out of it. i am not sure if its a combination of the funk, hormones, and changes but i don’t want to go through that again. many, many moons ago i would have handled the situation completely different with dire consequences but i do think (thank god and all that is holy) that is also behind me. so instead of the dire consequences, i just go to the weird place, have an attack of the crazy, and hope to come out on the other side unscathed and smelling of roses or something else pleasant.
i did find this meme at Kcinnovas World and figured it was a great one to do so here goes:
What is your current obsession? figuring out what to do with my free time, school is done, no more looming papers or articles to read. Summer breaks are nothing new but i haven’t had one in a while…i am thinking of making books again
Good coffee place? the little huts in random parking lots all over washington state.
Do you nap a lot? i haven’t had a nap in forever it seems, but it is so blustery today that perhaps a nap is in order…not at my desk though.
What part of your body hurts the most? i hate to admit it, but i would have to say my hands, i don’t know if its arthritis or carpal tunnel but there are mornings when i wake up and my hands a stuck in a hook like position that reminds of the captain…i am not ready to submit to either the pain or a diagnosis so currently i am in the denial phase…so really no part of my body hurts! (denial is not just a river in egypt people)
Who was the last person you hugged? my fiance
What’s for dinner? oh crap…nick has been away on a school field trip and i have been slacking in the cooking dinner department, i have no idea…it could be hot dogs again for all i know, i didn’t get anything out of the freezer
What are you listening to right now? school buses parking
What is your favourite weather? any fall day with sun, clouds, and vibrant leaves.
What’s on your bedside table? dust, a depression glass bowl with some jewelry in it, my cursed alarm clock, phone charger, an icon, an old grocery list, dried flowers nick picked for me from mount st. helen and more dust.
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you want it to be ? i am not really sure, i know it would need to be near water, but that really doesn’t narrow it down now does it?
What is the last song you listened to? if i had it all by dave matthews band…14 more days till mags!!16 more till dave and fenway…!!!
Favourite vacation spot? as cheesey as it sounds anywhere with the people i love
What is something you’d like to do in the next 6 months? get married, most likely on a boat with my parents, kevin parents, mary and her boyfriend, nick and my grandmother.
What would you like to get rid of? chin hair, I HATE it!
If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? i cant think of any place that i could only spend an hour at…
What did you want to become as a child? a large animal vet, preferably one that worked with horses in Kentucky
What do you miss? my sister
What are you reading right now? Angles and Demons
What do you fear the most? i am going to have to steal Kcinnovas answer and say loved ones, i couldn’t even imagine anyone close to me being lost, it would be like taking away my air
What designer piece of clothing would you most like to own (new or vintage)? a pair of Manolo blanhik strappy sandles (not very original but…)
What did you last watch on television? rachel maddow
Are all the answers you gave on this meme true? of course!
ps. hobbes is an internet hit now, you can check him out at Leave Happier